My emotions are less intense now. My anxiety is still a factor though.

Tried running when I was on a “walk” the last few days, seems to generate the most intense feelings at the moment.

I’m not even sure what I’m feeling most of the time, just that something, anything, intense is felt when running.

Now my emotions are turned down it seems that I want another thing that’s intense, fortunately running (short bursts repeatedly) is a safe, and practical, thing to do.

If I had to make a comparison I’d say its like I’m 15 again (22 now) and running just for fun.

Other people seem to view it as “OK” and react a bit surprised (I think). Its a bit scary as I’m feeling stuff that hasn’t been felt for a long time, and I don’t know what will happen next.

I’d say this is progress, but I don’t want to jinx it.