worth it

Yay!

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I’m going to be trying living in my flat again (with support). It is basically what I want (minus having OCD).

I really hope it works out, and I don’t have to return to the ward.

At the moment it feels like anything (good) is possible.

Admittedly going shopping is going to be a struggle, as is sticking to a budget when buying cleaning products. Hopefully the at home support the ward/CMHT offers helps me get through those problems.

I really don’t want something to come up that stops me going to my flat. I’m will need to keep up with a lot to make this work, the Covid-19 crisis doesn’t help, but at the moment I’m on cloud 9.

It was worth it…

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  • To call Samaritans about my worries (which took 45 minutes)
  • To have a shower (which took 3-4 hours)
  • To leave my flat (at 20:00…)
  • To visit my parents
  • To put up with the noisy crowed bus, where anyone could bump into me (OCD and contamination, not fun)
  • To go to the supermarket

Just so I can have moments of peace and quiet now that my day is done, and there’s no pressure to do anything

Just so I can listen to calm music.

Just so I can surf the internet without panicking every 30s that I haven’t done something.

Just so I can be happy, today wasn’t a disaster!

When life is hard, it’s the little things that really matter, doesn’t matter that you aren’t perfect, just that you’re here, and now.

Bye for now.