Warning: If you think about or have experience of self-harm or suicidal thoughts this post may be triggering
Yes, actually. I’m in A&E yet again, with yet another deliberate overdose.
This one is unusual for more than one reason.
Firstly, it’s been a significant amount of time since the last one took place.
Secondly, it was to replace an even worse behaviour, hanging myself.
At about 22 shops:00 my mind said (paraphrasing) “You’re gonna feel crap when you wake up tomorrow, might as well self harm now. Hang yourself”.
My response “Ok, I agree, let’s see how practical it is”
After testing a ligature point, I said to my mind “Is an overdose good enough to keep you quiet?”
My mind, “Yeah, that’s sufficiently bad”
At which point I looked up which shops were still open, purchased the medication, and after a few delays, took it.
I did immediately tell someone I’d taken it, and go straight to A&E, so there’s that, but as always it would have been preferably to avoid the self-harm in the first place.
Here to encourage and support you! Glad you made it through…
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