A&E

Just talk :)

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I’ve self-harmed and needed to go to A&E again (see last post).

However, on the plus side I’ve been reminded, again and again, by various people that I can just talk to people about how I am, and that they’d prefer to know, no matter how bad it is.

I love having people around me who feel that way, they’re the best kind of people.

I am sad that I forgot that they were there to talk to, as it has been so long since I’ve had an incident like that, that I just forgot.

Just wanted to say, people are there, and some even want you to talk to them 🙂

No, no, noooo….

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Warning: If you think about or have experience of self-harm or suicidal thoughts this post may be triggering

Yes, actually. I’m in A&E yet again, with yet another deliberate overdose.

This one is unusual for more than one reason.

Firstly, it’s been a significant amount of time since the last one took place.

Secondly, it was to replace an even worse behaviour, hanging myself.

At about 22 shops:00 my mind said (paraphrasing) “You’re gonna feel crap when you wake up tomorrow, might as well self harm now. Hang yourself”.

My response “Ok, I agree, let’s see how practical it is”

After testing a ligature point, I said to my mind “Is an overdose good enough to keep you quiet?”

My mind, “Yeah, that’s sufficiently bad”

At which point I looked up which shops were still open, purchased the medication, and after a few delays, took it.

I did immediately tell someone I’d taken it, and go straight to A&E, so there’s that, but as always it would have been preferably to avoid the self-harm in the first place.